Life's Curve Ball

Hmmm...life has thrown a curve ball and i couldnt stop it. Of course who can stop life...no one. God can help everyone who asks him for help and he has calmed me through this personal storm, but i wish he would make it go away. I mean maybe it has happened for a reason but i cant understand that reason. It has been happening over a period of 2 years and it will not go away...im lost and i dont know what to do or how to handle it anymore...i wish i did. I just feel alone but i know im not because i have God and friends..i also have Ian who is a major help in all of this...hes always there by my side when i need him.

School life is going very well. I love Mrs. Kriegers class because she makes it so much fun. Its not like some old boring english class ive had before. We watched a movie called the Freedom Writers and it made me think about how much a single person can affect a group of people in such a positive way. That movie really makes you think about people and the situations they live in. Even if some people seem like they have the perfect life, it may not be true. They could be putting on an act so everyone thinks they are pretty and perfect. Well thats enough for now; i might write later but idk

i hate being sick.

for all i care sickness can go die in a hole forever. that would make the world a much happier place. being sick has ruined my whole weekend and it sucks. so ive just been sitting at home laying on the couch and dozing on and off. ive also been txting and watching the lord of the rings and just taking it easy, what else is there to do. i was gonna go to church today but i had a fever so my mom said i couldnt go. i dont really know what to write about....im just complaining about being sick...what fun is that to read about..ok well im done...i might write more later idk.